An Introduction

Learning to express myself again, learning to use my words for His glory.

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Okay, so where was I when I even started thinking about putting pen to paper again? Why am I blogging today? 1st know I have always wanted to write, I used to write, but I stopped. I allowed someone to make me feel as if I was not good enough and put the pen down. I tucked my words and then myself away.

I was lost, but now am found. I had nothing inside to express, I was empty, but now am filled with His grace and love. I am being pulled to write again, I know I need to follow this calling.

**Look for future blogs that highlight in more detail where I was when I stopped writing and why, this is meant to be the introduction to many topics I will write of**

Who I am today:

Very recently married to my best friend, a mother to four (count them) boys, we each work full time, and each being involved in service… I can in almost every way find so much richness in my life today.

Yet through all my blessings I also find that I still have much to learn about myself. How many of you feel that way at times? We ask why are we here or what our purpose is? We question “who am I”, “why am I here”.

Maybe we won’t ever be able to answer these questions perfectly. Maybe the answers will change as we go along, but change is growth. Growth is a good thing.

For me I want the person looking back at me in the mirror to match the Millie in my mind’s eye; the reflection I want to be and have always seen, but never become, the child my Father had planned for me. He has known me before I was born, His plan existed before I was developed. I am ready to find and fill that purpose.

I am discovering who I am in my faith, I am discovering who I am in this world and how to love that person unconditionally. I am learning to live my best life now, not trudge through the past or worry about the future, but to be the best me in the moment.

And isn’t that good enough?

Our paths may not be the same, but we can walk together. Add your comments and your own experiences below. I would love to see where we all are on this journey of life.

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The Journey Begins

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Let me say hello! ***And reintroduce myself, I am a Christian blogger who wants to share the mercy, grace and love of a God who saves.. who saved me!***

The Idea Behind.. 

Not all Christians come prim and proper, do we? No! Most anyone who has found their way to true faith come in pretty tattered. I did. Ink on skin, clothes worn, face scowled. I came. I fell. I believed. I rose again. And those tattoos stayed, maybe even a few more to be added. I am still a child of God and today I reflect that in how I live, not how I look.

And thus… 

Rebel Christian comes to fruition. A place that 1st existed in my thoughts to take the beauty of the God I know and the uniqueness of each of us.. and create a welcome place for us all. I hope.. though you may have come to scoff, you may remain to build upon your faith this amazing way of living with me. 

***This is not to discriminate against your beliefs, this is not to cast judgement on those who don’t believe as I believe. This is just to share my story. I have no other story to offer. Though I love to learn  in a positive way (so keep the comments nice) all walks of faith and look forward to reading them and learning more about each of you***

Most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be – Abe Lincoln

I want to start by saying that I truly believe the words spoken by our 16th president, Abe Lincoln – “most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be “. I’m about as happy as they come most of the time. I love looking at what each moment offers, being present in my surroundings, enjoying life on life’s terms.

***This is how I live today though – when I spent the 1st part of my life in blind, angry misery. Even a good moment not being good enough. I was missing something, always searching – yet never looking where I needed to find that – inside myself. 

I posted this blog initially, but left a key element to who I am today out of it and knew to be true to myself I had to come back and share fully and openly. I am a recovered person – whole in mind ,body and spirit today. I no longer need an external source to fill an internal need. I am restored, I am whole, I am sane again (well mostly)***

We find out who we really are when we can see ourselves in any particular moment.

I don’t pretend to do this perfectly, nor do I have to. Today I can just be. Getting to this point though was the kind of challenge that only retrospect allows you to smile at. I was, for all intensive purposes, just another miserable, unsatisfied, restless individual. I was always irritable, depressed, never content with where I was or who I was. I didn’t know what I was missing, but that never stopped me for searching for the “it” to fix me and for me the wrong forms of “happiness” always seemed to take over, bringing yet more misery, depression, followed by another search.

I’m so glad life is so much simpler today!

While this blog may go back and look at some of those darker moments, may look forward at the possible brighter moments, this is just about being in the moment and discovering myself again, for the 1st time. Today I know where my feet are. And I am finding my true self when I am planted in the world around me.

Today I live by two simple reminders:

  1. Know Where My Feet Are
  2. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me

I invite you along. I invite you to invite others along with us as we live, learn, grow together.

Feel your blessings friends!post